New Life

It's now the 9th day of new 2014. 9/365. 4th day of a new school term. 

everything doesn't go quite well. but i shall not slack off because i don't

want to be who I am now. I need a change. Every relationship that I'd

been through made me see through the true self of a girl. Every relationship

is like a nightmare. Always dreaming about how things went wrong, how

I actually survived each and every one of them. Really had a phobia towards

relationships. Guess I'm still too naive to think that having relationships now 

can last forever. Forever too trusting, dependent on a girl. Hanon Hoo Yi Xin,

you have to stop all this right now. You are no longer a kid. Time to grow up.

I need to revert back to the life where I can still study well for exams, getting 

good grades, and my parents don't ever have to worry about me any  more.

I've taken the first step into change: Spendthrift and clear all the debts I owed.

Second step shall be start studying and stop slacking off any more. life is too 

short to waste such precious time away. as for emotional wise, I would just 

let everything go. No point holding on to anyone of it. Stop hating, Start forgiving.

After all hating waste a lot of energy. Jia You. You can do this. :D

Hanon

the Importance of a CREW

hey all! sorry for not posting yesterday as there was no time for me to post. by the time i reached home last night it was alr past 12am. actually nothing much about yesterday. i went back to school for a dance rehearsals with my crew mates. supposingly we wanted to go T22 as there was our usual hangout. however, in order to get there, we have to take a long cut from FC4 as the road were all blocked up thanks to the construction that was proposed by SP. while passing by FC4, i decided to check out if the studio there was open and thankfully it is. so without much hesitation, i informed about it to my crew mates. i don't know why whenever i enter the studio it was always in a very bad state. rubbishes all around, leftover food, trays etc. i have to sweep and clear away all this by myself so that i could train with a clean place. i guess there are really irresponsible users around in SP. the rehearsal time that was planned to start was at 2, and this friend of mine said he would be late and reaching at around 4plus. however, he was found nowhere at that timing but even later than this. to prevent conflict, i refrain myself to not tell him off and kept quiet. reluctant to train anymore, i decided to go cycling. but by the time i reached home was already quite late, so the planned was cancelled. in the midst of training, we tried to design a shirt for the performance. so we met up after we had our dinner. and the same friend of mine commented on one of my crew mate saying that he wouldn't make it in time. so i just merely commented that he was not on time just now. he raged and say that he was just commenting. so i just tell him im commenting too. seems like he take it as im trying to get back at him of something. but thats none of my business. so when we ended the meeting, another crew mate mentioned on Whatsapp saying that we are not helping them at all as we are just complaining and not suggesting. thinking that he was raging, i tried to calm him down and tell him he was wrong somewhere. this same friend of mine took the opportunity to tell me off again. don't get it why he was in the wrong and still can be so cocky and scolded me like as if it was my fault. he thought i was raging back at the crew mate but this crew mate don't take it as i was raging. and this friend of mine just jump into the conclusion that i was raging, seriously bro? can't you read the text properly? so i just told him that i look over a lot of things that he had done. so he wanted to thrash everything out. we get everyone in the crew to skype to thrash everything out. and i don't know why this friend of mine keep saying "okay okay, my fault, i get it okay? next" so im like, bro, you are the one who wanted to thrash out talk and im here telling that is your mistakes. you don't even say SORRY and you said the same thing over again with frustration. so what is now? our fault to tell you that it is your mistakes? and more importantly, he even tried to cover his mistakes. so another crew mate of mine just voice out his opinion on whats wrong. so his last sentence was " SORRY was created to be said and used when needed" and this is obviously referring to this friend of mine. so he just repeat his sentence and add on," okay okay! i get it!" so whats your problem now? we tried not to spell everything out if not it will defeat the purpose of saying it. but we explained to you what he was trying to say. and now you just act like nothing happened and continue to admit that it was your mistakes? so what if you admit? did you even tried to change yourself after this 9 years? after every conflict with me you still don know me? hello, you are our crew mate and we treat you like us too. we are trying to help you and this is the attitude you show. okay. thats fine with me. but next time if you try to seek my help, i shall just wash my hands off all your stuffs.

Start of something new!

Hi all! this is my blog for a very long time! so I'm finally here to revive and edit it!
its been years since i last posted! So much of memories back then. :') but I deleted
every last bit of the posts before because I just can't stop laughing to see how
childish or stupid I was back then. Let's make this post a short one and I shall start
to post every single day if I got the time to do it! :D and to all the BBoys out there,
NEVER STOP BREAKING!

Peace,
Hanon