everything doesn't go quite well. but i shall not slack off because i don't
want to be who I am now. I need a change. Every relationship that I'd
been through made me see through the true self of a girl. Every relationship
is like a nightmare. Always dreaming about how things went wrong, how
I actually survived each and every one of them. Really had a phobia towards
relationships. Guess I'm still too naive to think that having relationships now
can last forever. Forever too trusting, dependent on a girl. Hanon Hoo Yi Xin,
you have to stop all this right now. You are no longer a kid. Time to grow up.
I need to revert back to the life where I can still study well for exams, getting
good grades, and my parents don't ever have to worry about me any more.
I've taken the first step into change: Spendthrift and clear all the debts I owed.
Second step shall be start studying and stop slacking off any more. life is too
short to waste such precious time away. as for emotional wise, I would just
let everything go. No point holding on to anyone of it. Stop hating, Start forgiving.
After all hating waste a lot of energy. Jia You. You can do this. :D
Hanon
